Riding out the storm.

Life is moving forward and I'm not ready to go there yet, nor do I want to. I like the carefree life I used to have. I'm stressing over money. Since when did that happen? I used to throw it around like it was nothing. Now I'm checking my bank account every day to be sure that I have something. Things are changing, and not just financially.

My friends are changing. Those friends are hanging out with new people, as am I. We're drifting apart and I'm not doing anything to stop it. These things happen after high school, but nobody wants to admit it. You can try and keep in touch, but the reality of it is, the people you thought you knew way back when won't be the same people five years from now. I can't wait for my high school reunion, even if I did just graduate this past year. I want to see the change; to see what people have become.

I'm ranting and trying to think of something to say, but I can't put my thoughts to words right now. I wish I could restart knowing everything I knew now. I would know what was a waste of time and I could right my wrongs and I could change EVERYTHING. Even now, I'm wishing things could change in the present, but I don't know how.

Life is a storm.

I'll ride it out and see what happens.