Life is better.

I've learned recently that one should always reach for what they want and create their own happiness, because it doesn't always come as easily as people might hope.

It is late, and I keep telling myself that I need to reset my sleeping schedule, due to college starting back up soon, but my body just doesn't want to sleep. I suppose it's mostly my mind; the thoughts racing and scenarios of the following day's events unfolding, as if I can change what happens by seeing every possible path beforehand. Am I the only one with this problem? I've been looking to the future a lot these past couple of months. I look at every possible outcome before I act on an urge or an impulse, which then causes me not to act at all from fear of certain outcomes, because I always make the negative endings outweigh the positive endings. What I didn't realize was all of the negative possibilities make the positive outcome so much sweeter in the end.

That's my mini-rant that, until going through and proofreading the post, I didn't realize was so short. Explanations shall come in the following days. For now...LIFE IS BETTER, because I reached and brought about my own happiness.

Content.

I wanted to put up another post, but I wasn't sure what to talk about this time around. I usually go on and on about the drama in my life, but there hasn't been any lately. And for that, I'm thankful, but it makes for a lack of intriguing blog posts. I could always bitch about my friends and their lives, but there are some that I know read this blog and, while I wouldn't mind saying it to their face, I'm not going to put it out into the open and if you're questioning whether or not I am talking about YOU, I probably am.

My life, while being undramatic, is quite uneventful for the time being. Maybe that's what makes it so calm and peaceful. Maybe the lack of events makes for a less drama-filled life, if that makes any sense at all. I'm spending all my time away from my home and in somebody else's, because I still long that change of environment; something new in my life. I don't like putting forth the effort for a change, so I welcome the fact that I can drive ten minutes and be in somebody else's life and out of my own.

It may sound like I'm being a downer again, as I have been in previous posts, but that really isn't the case. I'm not extremely happy, but I'm not depressed either.

I'm CONTENT.

The end of days.

Welcome to the eleventh post. It feels like I've been posting a lot longer than that. Everything is working out now. I had to reach my low-point in order to rise above everything else. I'm hanging with my old "crew" again, and it's an amazing escape.

Now some insight into my life. I realized recently, a couple of minutes ago actually, that when you grow up privileged like I did, it is very easy to get bored with life. I have everything, get to do anything, so where's the excitement? That's why I try to leave the house as much as I can and go to my friend's apartment lately. It's a much welcomed change in scenery. Now that school is out for the month, with the exception of a final in College Trigonometry this next Wednesday, I really need to find other things to do. The babysitting gig I had going for a while is being put off another month, so we'll see what happens when January comes around. I'm actually doing good without a steady source of income, which is really surprising. I'm discovering what my "wants" are and what my "needs" are. Once you figure that out, you will find that money doesn't become much of a problem.

And I moved up the wait list for Psychology last night, which makes me happy. I really want to get into that class for Winter quarter, but if I don't, it won't be the end of the world.

P.S. Yes. It will be. THE END OF DAYS shall be upon us if I don't get what I want!